When you yourself are the obstacle you must overcome, self-doubt creeps into everything... you doubt your own power, your own potential, your own ability, and you doubt that what you dream of, what you hope for, what you long to become, can ever be. And that doubt separates you - from your power, from others, and from G*d, because doubt comes with shame and sorrow, and shame and sorrow love darkness and isolation.
What does it mean for you to honor yourself? What would it look like to show up the way you intend, the way you mean, the way you hope? What would be different about your communication, your relationships, your daily life? What keeps you from honoring yourself, and what helps you?
You don't need a 5-year plan; most of us need a 5-minute plan or a 5-hour plan or a 5-day plan about the actual stuff we're going to say and do. Beyond that we are just crossing our fingers and hoping for the best. As anyone who has worked to overcome the force of destructive habits knows, all the real work happens between one second and the next.
The benefit of the spiritual journey is that it supports us as we move from second-to-second, encouraging us to move slowly and thoughtfully. Open your heart up and take strength from G*d's grace. Use the divine love given so freely, wisely and well. Let G*d's power be your power so you don't have to keep trying so hard.